Why I Don’t Blog AnymorePosted: November 4, 2013
I’ve been thinking a lot about what to do with “It’s a Man’s World”. The reason I have to “do something” with it is because I no longer care about my career. This means that I no longer spend all my free time thinking about how to improve myself to further my career, which means I no longer have a plethora of career related blog topics oozing out of me. You can’t blog about something you’re not passionate about.
Just to clarify, I still like my job. In fact, in some ways I like my job more now than I ever have. It’s just that I no longer give much thought to the bigger picture of my career path, and I don’t really care about becoming “successful”.
This isn’t all that surprising to me, because I’ve never really been one for career ambition, I’m more the drop out of grad school to be a ski bum type. Two years ago when I started caring about my career I thought that I must have finally reached the level of maturity where you start taking your future seriously, but it turns out it was just a false alarm. Phew… close call.
And honestly, I’m a little embarrassed about how wrapped up in it I got… I got a taste of what it felt like to be a big deal*, and suddenly my career was all I cared about. I liked the feeling of being “important”, and I thought that accomplishing as much career “success” as possible should take priority over other areas of my life. I thought that’s what it would take to have a career that I was proud of, and I thought that was what I wanted.
*I played a key role in a project that ended up being super high profile, so I got a lot of exposure and a lot of attention and I got to do lots of fun stuff. I mean, my project was on the Today Show, and I got to be there for the broadcast… that’s freaking exciting. At least for me it is. So in my own little world, I was sort of a big deal… but of course, it’s all relative.
Somewhere along the line I stopped giving a crap about all of that. I’ve come to understand and appreciate the value of things like flexibility and having a life outside of work. With respect to my career, I just want to focus on doing work that that I’m proud of, and doing it well. Wherever that leads me is where I want to be. Since having this realization, I’ve been a much happier person, and overall I’m more satisfied with my life.
When my sister edited this post she told me not to discredit my entire blog by saying that my earlier mindset was silly. This prompted me to go back and read a few posts. Which lead to reading a few more posts. Which led to reading the rest of the posts. I probably shouldn’t admit to how much I enjoyed reading my own blog, but THAT SHIT IS GOOD! Really good! I’m shocked and impressed that I wrote some of that stuff! We like to think we have a grip on who we are and where we’re going in life, but the reality of the situation is that perspective, priorities and values can change quickly and without warning. And once they’ve changed, the person you used to be feels eerily unfamiliar.
The thing is, getting new priorities don’t make your old priorities invalid… your old priorities were important steps in the evolution of who you are today. You can’t control passion… it will come and go. All you can do is embrace it in the moment and try to learn from the experience.
And write a super awesome blog about it. Obviously.
I don’t even remember where I was going with this… I think this entire post was just a long-winded explanation of why I’m not going to blog anymore. That’s it. I’m not going to blog anymore. You can move on with your day now.
Ok wait, just one more thing… why, you ask, are there random pictures of me lifting weights in this post? Well, because that’s what has taken the place of my career as the thing in my life that I’m blatantly and completely obsessed with.
At least for the moment.
Who knows what will be next.